16. An eternal struggle

An eternal struggle – you see

I’m waiting for you to find me

Delusional, passive, maddening, manic

I’ve been dying since I left town;

I’m a cowboy with no gun on his hip

I’m a racehorse with a limp

I’m a soldier with a blinded eye

I’m an animal waiting to die

It’s all this fucking waiting

You don’t even know

When I’m alone and manic

It’s more than truly alone;

I’m a dog without a bone

I’m a snail without a shell for home

I’m an ogre with no souls to eat

I’m the remnant of what I used to bleed

I’m still looking for my company

An aura that neither one can leave;

The only time I’ve been free

Was cast aside too carelessly